Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Dark Days

Do you ever have one of those days that just pop up outta nowhere and hit you?

That was Tuesday for me.

It should have been a great day.
Monday, I had a job interview, followed by lunch/thesis prep with a good friend, dinner with my married friends, and a much needed catch up chat with a girlie I'd been missing.

I should have been flying high, busting out work on my thesis (I found out the first draft is due in March, not May, so I need to get my butt in gear!)

Instead, I woke up Tuesday morning and hit a wall.
I couldn't drag myself out of bed for longer than a trip to the kitchen for snack.
I was alternating between sleep and panic.
I had received a call that I had a follow up interview on Wednesday, so I should have been stoked.
Instead I was panicked, freaked out that the interviewers were going to think I'm not ready.
I thought they might tell me I wasn't ready for the grown up job, that this was too difficult a job and too big of a commitment for me. 

I didn't pull myself out of bed and into the shower until well after 5 pm. 
Even then, it was a challenge.
If J. hadn't been texting me all day to check in on me, I probably never would have crawled out of my covers.
I just didn't want to face the fact that I was completely alone in my world,
with no human contact at all beyond my cell phone screen. 

Some days, I just can't handle being alone. I can't seem to deal with getting up and being responsible.

Some days, that's okay.

Luckily for me, as time goes on, these days get fewer and far between. 

Someday, maybe, I can avoid a dark day, alone in my bed with my Nutella and Wheat Thins for comfort.

Someday.

So, readers, I have a question for you.

Do you ever have dark days? If so, how do you handle them? Do you have any tried and true techniques to kick a funk and function? 

Please, email me if you have any tips, as I can use all the help I can get with this. 

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