Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Oh, hello there...

Goodness it's been awhile. There's sooo many changes I've made recently that I feel like I've been running in circles trying to figure my life out. Still am, actually.

So what could possibly be changing? Well, how about a little bit of EVERYTHING.

I changed my entire degree plan. This crazy head got a little bit saner - I am no longer a double degree. I switched it all up so I am now an English Literature major with a minor in Humanities (which means I get to use my linguistics and Spanish credits and not feel like I wasted my life!) I was also toying with the idea of dropping the honors program because I cannot come up with a thesis topic to save my life. (any helpful ideas?? I'm scrounging!!!)

My job has gotten a lot more difficult to enjoy. My best work buddy got married and moved to texas in the space of a week (long story short, her hubby is in the Air Force) and the other two girls I started work with are leaving in march and in april, so everything is changing in their department.

All of my drama from last term is out of my life, and the only time I thought about it was when i met someone's relative. Other than that, I don't care to look back and I don't think I ever will. I've learned more about who I don't want in my life, and I am working hard to keep things calm.

My main problem is the fact that i always feel like I'm walking on eggshells and I have no idea why. I can't seem to ever fully relax - I feel like I am missing something important. I don't know what is going on but all this anxiety has been giving me headaches and stomach aches to the point where I'm cancelling on friends to curl up in bed.

Blogging has taken a backseat in my life. It just hasn't felt right in a long time. I read other blogs daily, several times a day actually, but my own thoughts and musings just haven't felt like they belong here in the blogosphere. It may be time to give it up, or at least take a few months and see where my life goes. This will be my first summer without classes since I started college, and I am done with classes after fall term of next year. Maybe then I can devote my time and effort here.    We shall see how it goes :)